WOW!! this is awesome! Id like to meet this girl and shake her hand! congrats to you and thank you for doing such a wonderful job!!!
If youd like to read the article that goes along withthe video, you can read it here.
Well, Id love to embed the video here, but i can't figure it out, if anyone is reading this and can tell me how, please let me know. but go to this link here it is youtube.
Its heartbreaking that this little girl even has to know what this horror is! What a wonderful job she has done!!! Praise God for her boldness!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
George Muller
I have been reading a book with my kids about George Muller. This man was amazing!! This book has gotten me interested in reading!! (i hate reading!!) i cant wait to get to the next chapter! Cant wait to see what happens next!! Its so exciting!!
But, the reason its so exciting is because its very convicting to me. Ive never wanted to "be a missionary" or anything like that. I mean, i lvoe hearing missionary stories and pray for them when i no how to pray, but never had any desire to do any type of mission work. But as Im reading this story, quite honestly, im ready to give up all that I have and start a house for girls whove decided to not have an abortion and help them out during the pregnancy.
Now, dont get me wrong (and as my husbands reading this, his heart is probly thumping in terror right now, sorry lol) im not saying im going to go give away everything i have. but ive never in my life thought of that as a "good idea" crazy, actually was my thoughts, lol. For the first time, while reading this book, I get it. I get that he was trusting in God and God got to show just how powerful He is! God got to show so much to the people in Bristol England, and now all over the world almost 200 years later, how awesome He is!!
While im sitting here in debt, trying to figure out what job im going to do to earn some money, and how ill do it while homeschooling 6 kids and how to make it all work to pay the bills off. Alli need to do is trust in God. He'll never leave me. Hes got me covered. financially. spiritually. physically. mentally. in every way, Hes got me covered!! What more can i ask for!!
I hope that one day, God allows me to have a "mission" of helping post abortive women again. I pray that I will get to talk to more scared pregnant women and talk them out of having an abortion by telling them what my precious Joshua went thru. But until then, I will realize that God has me on a mission right now!! My mission field is right here in my own house. and its high time i start living it!!
Ill leave you with this thought, as a pastor friend of mine says when asked how hes doing. His reply is always "better than i deserve"!!! yep. i know what i deserve. and ive got so much more! PRAISE GOD!!!
But, the reason its so exciting is because its very convicting to me. Ive never wanted to "be a missionary" or anything like that. I mean, i lvoe hearing missionary stories and pray for them when i no how to pray, but never had any desire to do any type of mission work. But as Im reading this story, quite honestly, im ready to give up all that I have and start a house for girls whove decided to not have an abortion and help them out during the pregnancy.
Now, dont get me wrong (and as my husbands reading this, his heart is probly thumping in terror right now, sorry lol) im not saying im going to go give away everything i have. but ive never in my life thought of that as a "good idea" crazy, actually was my thoughts, lol. For the first time, while reading this book, I get it. I get that he was trusting in God and God got to show just how powerful He is! God got to show so much to the people in Bristol England, and now all over the world almost 200 years later, how awesome He is!!
While im sitting here in debt, trying to figure out what job im going to do to earn some money, and how ill do it while homeschooling 6 kids and how to make it all work to pay the bills off. Alli need to do is trust in God. He'll never leave me. Hes got me covered. financially. spiritually. physically. mentally. in every way, Hes got me covered!! What more can i ask for!!
I hope that one day, God allows me to have a "mission" of helping post abortive women again. I pray that I will get to talk to more scared pregnant women and talk them out of having an abortion by telling them what my precious Joshua went thru. But until then, I will realize that God has me on a mission right now!! My mission field is right here in my own house. and its high time i start living it!!
Ill leave you with this thought, as a pastor friend of mine says when asked how hes doing. His reply is always "better than i deserve"!!! yep. i know what i deserve. and ive got so much more! PRAISE GOD!!!
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Between Two Worlds: The Case for Life, Around the Web
This was posted last Thursday. If you do not get time to do anything else on the page, take 7 minutes and watch the video, then go hug a kid and tell them how special they are.
Between Two Worlds: The Case for Life, Around the Web
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Between Two Worlds: The Case for Life, Around the Web
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It is possible
Often, Christians can use "all things are possible with God" as a holy trump card to cover things they want to be true, or doctrines they want to support but cannot prove from Scripture. I am getting a sense that the church is a little uncomfortable right now because of the Democratic control of the Federal government. To that, I am thankful that God, through His Providence, has made the church uncomfortable, since comfort inevitably leads to complacency. It should be different, but the Fall pretty much clinched that discomfort would be the norm in this life.
But, part of this uneasiness translates to unbelief that abortion could be made illegal again in this nation. It seems like we have become indifferent (myself included until 1/22/09) to the reality that this was known as murder for most of our nation's history, and that it is possible to reverse this decision, even in our lifetime. We must believe that, or else we are not following the God of Israel, who seemingly all of a sudden hears the cries of HIS people.
It makes me think of the Israelites when the Pharaohs no longer knew who Joseph was, and made God's people slaves. Generations passed with this situation, until one day, God comes to Moses and says "I have heard the cries of my people" and He sent Moses as the means to deliver His people from bondage.
So, it is possible that God could be hearing the cries of HIS people, who want to see the injustice done to millions upon millions over all these years end, now. It would certainly be consistent with God's character to do that now, when it seems so improbable that many consider it impossible, so that we know it was Him, not us, and that He alone gets the glory, because we know it was not possible apart from the power of God.
Walls fall down, the enemy is put into confusion and falls to 300 men Israelite armies, seas part. That is what God has called us to here at Joshua's Voice, to have the supernatural courage to enter the battle and be a part of His-tory, that all the world may know that He is God and there is no other like Him.
But, part of this uneasiness translates to unbelief that abortion could be made illegal again in this nation. It seems like we have become indifferent (myself included until 1/22/09) to the reality that this was known as murder for most of our nation's history, and that it is possible to reverse this decision, even in our lifetime. We must believe that, or else we are not following the God of Israel, who seemingly all of a sudden hears the cries of HIS people.
It makes me think of the Israelites when the Pharaohs no longer knew who Joseph was, and made God's people slaves. Generations passed with this situation, until one day, God comes to Moses and says "I have heard the cries of my people" and He sent Moses as the means to deliver His people from bondage.
So, it is possible that God could be hearing the cries of HIS people, who want to see the injustice done to millions upon millions over all these years end, now. It would certainly be consistent with God's character to do that now, when it seems so improbable that many consider it impossible, so that we know it was Him, not us, and that He alone gets the glory, because we know it was not possible apart from the power of God.
Walls fall down, the enemy is put into confusion and falls to 300 men Israelite armies, seas part. That is what God has called us to here at Joshua's Voice, to have the supernatural courage to enter the battle and be a part of His-tory, that all the world may know that He is God and there is no other like Him.
My Testimony
Ive introduced Joshua and who he is. But before we go any further, i should probly add the rest of my testimony. How did this all come about. How do I know anything about this topic. Am I for real? Yes, Im not just saying "I understand" I actually lived thru the pain and misery. Ive suffered the consequences. Thats exactly why I want to show others how to deal with these consequences and how God can take them away. So I guess to introduce my self, heres my testimony...
I moved in with my boyfriend right out of high school (even graduated a year early just so I coudl do it) I thougt for sure that we would be together forever. That lasted almost 3 years, and then I left. After leaving him (because hes not really part of the story, but is a reason to why i kinda went a little wild and crazy for a while) i believed all the hype that i had gotten married too young and needed to "be young" nad sow my wild oats. So I went for it. I lived a crazy crazy lifestyle for a few years. Only by Gods grace did I survive! Because the things I did, I should be dead right now. But God had a bigger purpose, so by His grace, I survived.
Eventually, I let another man move in with me. It wasnt long before I found out I was pregnant. Ahhh!!! What was I gonna do now? Abortion was mentioned as an option, but I never accepted that. i said no way, I wont do it. I was kinda happy to be pregnant even though i had no clue what i was about to face. My "boyfriend" (other wise known as the sperm donor, because we cant think of anything better to say) was black and I am white. Some members of my family were, at the time, a bit prejudiced. (i say were because God used my son to show my family that peple are people regardless of what they look like praise God for that!!) I had to face these people, who i loved and i turned out to be a big disappoint me to them for a while. And, this man didnt stick around long. He left me, went back to his wife, took my car, tried to get me thrown in jail (false charges and the police knew it it was realllllly stupid!!) I lived in a different town that where i worked. So here I was pregnant, with no car and no way to work. To make a really long story a little shorter, I went into pre term labor, had to quit work and move in with my aunt, an hour away. I went thru a lot of hard times, but made it thru, soemhow (that somehow was God but I didnt know it then).
I had my baby and then moved 2 hours away, into my moms house. So here i was 24, a new mom, and a complete failure in life and living with my mother again. I couldnt stand it. I had to make something out of myself, for me and my son. I got a job and my son and i got our own apartment.
I believed the lie that no man would ever want me again. So of course, the first one that showed any interest at all, I took. WRONG ANSWER!!! I ended up pregnant again. My son wasnt even a year old! Here I was, had already disappointed everyone in my life, and now pregnant again. I had no intention of staying withthis man. I was afraid of him. I didnt like him, and I didnt want to be tied to him for the rest of my life. Fear of facing everyone in my life and dealing with this man forever took ahold of me.
Suddenly, after living my whole life saying abortion wasnt an option for me (i had always said that it wasnt wrong but that i wouldnt do it myself) I quickly considered it. It was so easy! i told me boss, and she lied to me, told me how to get out of work without anyone knowing. My mom was going to take me. My insurance paid for it. Id be in and out and itd be over with, never to think of it for the rest of my life!!
WRONG!!! DEAD WRONG!!
The dr. never told me what would happen. Io wasnt newly pregnant. I was 17 weeks by the time i had the abortion. I wont go into all the details because it will be too painful for anyone reading this and going thru the same memories. However, if youd like to know them, I will share, just comment me and ill email it to you. But I will tell you that I had to go into the hospital. I had to lay on a hopsialt bed for hours IN LABOR!!! I remember looking at my mom in horror telling her that I was so far into labor i was going to have to deliver this baby and then i wouldnt be able to handle that! (notice allt he "i"and "me's" in this! i was so seflish!!) I didnt deliver him, the nurse finally came and got me and the dr put me to sleep and when i woke up it was all over. still having no clue what had happened to me or my baby. having no clue that my life had just changed forever. Having no clue of the regret and guilt I would face for the rest of my life. This was October 9th.
On October 19, my grandmother, whom I adored, who raised me, who I called my mom for so long, died. She was the best Christian witness in my life. Such a strong loving Christian woman. I loved her so much. MY world was once again rocked. I had never experienced the death of someone close to me. Man that hurt so bad! I tried to go on, even though every day hurt so bad and I couldnt understand why. Wasnt this abortion supposed to make everything better??
There was a guy at work (yeah until this point, i shouldve learned to just stay away from men!) but t his one was differend. He kept talking to me about God. I was raised in church, I knew about God, but somehoe, I listened different this time. Everyone made fun of him because he would walk around singing hymns and talk about Jesus. but I would stand up for him. I liked what he was saying. One night, December 19th, he invited me to go to a Christmas play that he was going to be in. I thougt he was asking me out. I said "Sure!" We got there, (it was an huor away) and I realized that he was in the play, not sitting with me (yeah, Im not the sharpest knife in the drawer!!!) So there I sat, all alone, in this HUGE church knowing no one except my friend who was in the play. Again, all alone :( I cant tell you waht the play was about, I dont rememebr much of it, because that night, allt hru that play, I started having conversations with my very best friend. Jesus talked to me all thru that play. The guilt, the conviction, the truth faced me that night like it never had before. I actually forgot that I was sitting in this huge church, because at this point, it was all about me and God! He asked me, "are you going to give me your life?" "yes, Lord, please! Take it!! I give you ALL!!"He saved me that night! He took this pitiful life and made me whole. He cleaned the uncleanable. He said "Go and sin no more!"
A really awesome thing, is that Jason (this guy who witnessed to me and took me to the play) he lived an hour away, in another city about the size of where we worked, and couldnt find a job there any where. He worked there for over a year until he could find a job in his hometown. A week after I was saved, he was transferred to his hometown! I do believe he was there to witness to me! No, by the way, he wasnt flirting, we never got together, never tried, it wasnt about that! It was about God! Much better!!!
Theres so much more, but Ive written a book. but I cannot stop here.
I did join a church, the church my mom had been telling me for about 10 years that I ought to try and visit. I was baptized and started attending regularly. One night I went to what I thought was a Singles Bible study. It was, instead a birthday party for one of the single men. This man, i now call my husband. our first date was the night before my sons first birthday party (in January) We wre married the following June. One of the dates that we went on, was going to a Kathy Troccoli concert with another couple. She sang this song about abortion. In the lobby, before the concert, I saw a shurt that had those words on it. I dreaded the whole concert, knowing she was going to sing this song. I coudlnt handle it. I was bawling like a baby. Felt like the whole was looking at me, knowing what I had done. The guilt! Tha pain! I couldnt handle it. Way too much to bear!
Our aweosme God took this song, and told me "its time to deal with this! I wont let it just be buried!" I dotn remember how long it took, but evetually, I was lead to our local CPC (Crisis Pregnancy Center) I wanted to help others deal with this. They told me about this group called HEART (Healing the Effects of Abortion Related trama). Of course, I couldnt start leading it until I had went thru it myself. So I went thru the group. Oh my! I thougth I had dealt with it. But this group really helped me pull stuff out that I didnt even realize. I would get mad at what the rest of the world thought was something else, and it was , to me, about the abortion. But I can truely say that God took that all away from me. Using the things I had learned from HEART I was actually able to live thru this! There was hope! I also learned that my baby is in heaven, and Ill get to meet him someday!!! A little extra gift from God! hes still my son! I jstu dont get to raise him. But his life still had a purpose. God used me (ME!! a complete failure and a dissappointment to the entire wolrd!! He used ME!!!) to tell others by using my story! What an honor! I got to go around and speak to churchs about this horror. I got to show other women whove went this this that there is life and forgiveness afterwards! I even got to talk to a few women who were considering abortion and show them that there are other options!
But where my heart is, is to show other women that there is hope! There is healing! That God has a much better life for us and that this IS NOT the unpardonable sin!! That Jesus died on the cross for even this!
You know what I just realized, even more if not before. I havent been in this "fight" for a while. Ive let life get in the way. I dont want to stop. I want back in the fight! I want God to use me in this awesome message for His lost sheep! My prayer is that God is not done with me yet. That He will use me more and let me use my precious baby, Joshua, and his life and his story to help others struggling with this horror!!
Statistics show that at least one person in every family has dealt with this. If your reading this and are, or know soemone who is struggling with this, please know that theres hope! theres healing! please contact me! Id love to talk more. Id love to show you what God has said about this!
And if you are, or know someone who is dealing with the possibilty of having an abortion, know that God loves you and this precious child. Know that you are a parent now no matter what you choose. No condemnation w ill come from my lips (or hands as i type) but know that Jesus loves you and has a plan. please contact me and I will help you go thru this.
God is awesome! his healing is amazing! We often spend too much time forgetting this fact!
I moved in with my boyfriend right out of high school (even graduated a year early just so I coudl do it) I thougt for sure that we would be together forever. That lasted almost 3 years, and then I left. After leaving him (because hes not really part of the story, but is a reason to why i kinda went a little wild and crazy for a while) i believed all the hype that i had gotten married too young and needed to "be young" nad sow my wild oats. So I went for it. I lived a crazy crazy lifestyle for a few years. Only by Gods grace did I survive! Because the things I did, I should be dead right now. But God had a bigger purpose, so by His grace, I survived.
Eventually, I let another man move in with me. It wasnt long before I found out I was pregnant. Ahhh!!! What was I gonna do now? Abortion was mentioned as an option, but I never accepted that. i said no way, I wont do it. I was kinda happy to be pregnant even though i had no clue what i was about to face. My "boyfriend" (other wise known as the sperm donor, because we cant think of anything better to say) was black and I am white. Some members of my family were, at the time, a bit prejudiced. (i say were because God used my son to show my family that peple are people regardless of what they look like praise God for that!!) I had to face these people, who i loved and i turned out to be a big disappoint me to them for a while. And, this man didnt stick around long. He left me, went back to his wife, took my car, tried to get me thrown in jail (false charges and the police knew it it was realllllly stupid!!) I lived in a different town that where i worked. So here I was pregnant, with no car and no way to work. To make a really long story a little shorter, I went into pre term labor, had to quit work and move in with my aunt, an hour away. I went thru a lot of hard times, but made it thru, soemhow (that somehow was God but I didnt know it then).
I had my baby and then moved 2 hours away, into my moms house. So here i was 24, a new mom, and a complete failure in life and living with my mother again. I couldnt stand it. I had to make something out of myself, for me and my son. I got a job and my son and i got our own apartment.
I believed the lie that no man would ever want me again. So of course, the first one that showed any interest at all, I took. WRONG ANSWER!!! I ended up pregnant again. My son wasnt even a year old! Here I was, had already disappointed everyone in my life, and now pregnant again. I had no intention of staying withthis man. I was afraid of him. I didnt like him, and I didnt want to be tied to him for the rest of my life. Fear of facing everyone in my life and dealing with this man forever took ahold of me.
Suddenly, after living my whole life saying abortion wasnt an option for me (i had always said that it wasnt wrong but that i wouldnt do it myself) I quickly considered it. It was so easy! i told me boss, and she lied to me, told me how to get out of work without anyone knowing. My mom was going to take me. My insurance paid for it. Id be in and out and itd be over with, never to think of it for the rest of my life!!
WRONG!!! DEAD WRONG!!
The dr. never told me what would happen. Io wasnt newly pregnant. I was 17 weeks by the time i had the abortion. I wont go into all the details because it will be too painful for anyone reading this and going thru the same memories. However, if youd like to know them, I will share, just comment me and ill email it to you. But I will tell you that I had to go into the hospital. I had to lay on a hopsialt bed for hours IN LABOR!!! I remember looking at my mom in horror telling her that I was so far into labor i was going to have to deliver this baby and then i wouldnt be able to handle that! (notice allt he "i"and "me's" in this! i was so seflish!!) I didnt deliver him, the nurse finally came and got me and the dr put me to sleep and when i woke up it was all over. still having no clue what had happened to me or my baby. having no clue that my life had just changed forever. Having no clue of the regret and guilt I would face for the rest of my life. This was October 9th.
On October 19, my grandmother, whom I adored, who raised me, who I called my mom for so long, died. She was the best Christian witness in my life. Such a strong loving Christian woman. I loved her so much. MY world was once again rocked. I had never experienced the death of someone close to me. Man that hurt so bad! I tried to go on, even though every day hurt so bad and I couldnt understand why. Wasnt this abortion supposed to make everything better??
There was a guy at work (yeah until this point, i shouldve learned to just stay away from men!) but t his one was differend. He kept talking to me about God. I was raised in church, I knew about God, but somehoe, I listened different this time. Everyone made fun of him because he would walk around singing hymns and talk about Jesus. but I would stand up for him. I liked what he was saying. One night, December 19th, he invited me to go to a Christmas play that he was going to be in. I thougt he was asking me out. I said "Sure!" We got there, (it was an huor away) and I realized that he was in the play, not sitting with me (yeah, Im not the sharpest knife in the drawer!!!) So there I sat, all alone, in this HUGE church knowing no one except my friend who was in the play. Again, all alone :( I cant tell you waht the play was about, I dont rememebr much of it, because that night, allt hru that play, I started having conversations with my very best friend. Jesus talked to me all thru that play. The guilt, the conviction, the truth faced me that night like it never had before. I actually forgot that I was sitting in this huge church, because at this point, it was all about me and God! He asked me, "are you going to give me your life?" "yes, Lord, please! Take it!! I give you ALL!!"He saved me that night! He took this pitiful life and made me whole. He cleaned the uncleanable. He said "Go and sin no more!"
A really awesome thing, is that Jason (this guy who witnessed to me and took me to the play) he lived an hour away, in another city about the size of where we worked, and couldnt find a job there any where. He worked there for over a year until he could find a job in his hometown. A week after I was saved, he was transferred to his hometown! I do believe he was there to witness to me! No, by the way, he wasnt flirting, we never got together, never tried, it wasnt about that! It was about God! Much better!!!
Theres so much more, but Ive written a book. but I cannot stop here.
I did join a church, the church my mom had been telling me for about 10 years that I ought to try and visit. I was baptized and started attending regularly. One night I went to what I thought was a Singles Bible study. It was, instead a birthday party for one of the single men. This man, i now call my husband. our first date was the night before my sons first birthday party (in January) We wre married the following June. One of the dates that we went on, was going to a Kathy Troccoli concert with another couple. She sang this song about abortion. In the lobby, before the concert, I saw a shurt that had those words on it. I dreaded the whole concert, knowing she was going to sing this song. I coudlnt handle it. I was bawling like a baby. Felt like the whole was looking at me, knowing what I had done. The guilt! Tha pain! I couldnt handle it. Way too much to bear!
Our aweosme God took this song, and told me "its time to deal with this! I wont let it just be buried!" I dotn remember how long it took, but evetually, I was lead to our local CPC (Crisis Pregnancy Center) I wanted to help others deal with this. They told me about this group called HEART (Healing the Effects of Abortion Related trama). Of course, I couldnt start leading it until I had went thru it myself. So I went thru the group. Oh my! I thougth I had dealt with it. But this group really helped me pull stuff out that I didnt even realize. I would get mad at what the rest of the world thought was something else, and it was , to me, about the abortion. But I can truely say that God took that all away from me. Using the things I had learned from HEART I was actually able to live thru this! There was hope! I also learned that my baby is in heaven, and Ill get to meet him someday!!! A little extra gift from God! hes still my son! I jstu dont get to raise him. But his life still had a purpose. God used me (ME!! a complete failure and a dissappointment to the entire wolrd!! He used ME!!!) to tell others by using my story! What an honor! I got to go around and speak to churchs about this horror. I got to show other women whove went this this that there is life and forgiveness afterwards! I even got to talk to a few women who were considering abortion and show them that there are other options!
But where my heart is, is to show other women that there is hope! There is healing! That God has a much better life for us and that this IS NOT the unpardonable sin!! That Jesus died on the cross for even this!
You know what I just realized, even more if not before. I havent been in this "fight" for a while. Ive let life get in the way. I dont want to stop. I want back in the fight! I want God to use me in this awesome message for His lost sheep! My prayer is that God is not done with me yet. That He will use me more and let me use my precious baby, Joshua, and his life and his story to help others struggling with this horror!!
Statistics show that at least one person in every family has dealt with this. If your reading this and are, or know soemone who is struggling with this, please know that theres hope! theres healing! please contact me! Id love to talk more. Id love to show you what God has said about this!
And if you are, or know someone who is dealing with the possibilty of having an abortion, know that God loves you and this precious child. Know that you are a parent now no matter what you choose. No condemnation w ill come from my lips (or hands as i type) but know that Jesus loves you and has a plan. please contact me and I will help you go thru this.
God is awesome! his healing is amazing! We often spend too much time forgetting this fact!
Monday, January 26, 2009
My Birthday-January 22
By Cary
What follows is the email I sent to my wife on my 44th birthday and was also the birth of me joining her in her then dormant abortion counseling ministry:
I was born on this day in 1965. But, on my 8th birthday, millions of babies received their death sentence. Evil prevailed that day, and continues to prevail as I am reminded with each birthday, this one being my 44th, that God had mercy on me, but so many babies met their death that day. I have been thinking a lot about this subject this week as my blog reader fills up with the reminders. I have been talking about supernatural courage, and I need some, because I know that the Providence of God has called us to fight this evil of our day. Saints of all ages have had to fight battles--George Mueller the poorhouses, Martin Luther the Roman Catholic Church, William Wilberforce slavery. Our evil of the day, our Baal and Ashera poles, is the killing of babies in their mother's womb.
I had thoughts the other day of writing a story from the perspective of the baby, but pulled back on it because I did not want to upset you about this subject. I know Tilly is out there, but nothing else that I could find. I cannot pretend to put myself in that baby's place, and know that this will probably upset you as it will make you think of Joshua. But little Joshua Loughman died for a reason. My nephew/niece died for a reason. My cousin's babies, two of them he made his girlfriend kill, is still childless today, drinking himself to death as far as I know. Those babies died for a reason. And then I think of that little boy who is now 22 years old, who I Google every once in a while but still cannot find anything about him, whose life was saved because of what I Providentially said to his mom that night in her apartment on learning of the pregnancy when I thought he was mine (and still do). I was born on this very day for "times such as this."
So, it is nothing less than the Providence of God, but it is going to take supernatural courage to trust God to lead us to taking on this Satanic beast that has America captive, with a President who thinks abortion is right. I so often find myself doing what is practical instead of doing what is right. It is practical to continue crying crocodile tears for those babies once a year, as my birthday reminds me of how many have had deathdays based on the wickedness that was carried out in high places in our country on that day. But I have no doubts that God is bigger than our government, and is bigger, so much bigger, than Barack Obama's messiah complex that is being fed daily.
May He, by His grace, provide for our family's needs as we fight this Beast. May our God and Savior end this wicked law with the power that only He has, which is exactly what it is going to take. I know how you are so ready, so I am well aware that I cannot play with your emotions. I think we have a call from God that needs to be answered. May we trust Him to direct our steps (Prov. 3:5-6).
What follows is the email I sent to my wife on my 44th birthday and was also the birth of me joining her in her then dormant abortion counseling ministry:
I was born on this day in 1965. But, on my 8th birthday, millions of babies received their death sentence. Evil prevailed that day, and continues to prevail as I am reminded with each birthday, this one being my 44th, that God had mercy on me, but so many babies met their death that day. I have been thinking a lot about this subject this week as my blog reader fills up with the reminders. I have been talking about supernatural courage, and I need some, because I know that the Providence of God has called us to fight this evil of our day. Saints of all ages have had to fight battles--George Mueller the poorhouses, Martin Luther the Roman Catholic Church, William Wilberforce slavery. Our evil of the day, our Baal and Ashera poles, is the killing of babies in their mother's womb.
I had thoughts the other day of writing a story from the perspective of the baby, but pulled back on it because I did not want to upset you about this subject. I know Tilly is out there, but nothing else that I could find. I cannot pretend to put myself in that baby's place, and know that this will probably upset you as it will make you think of Joshua. But little Joshua Loughman died for a reason. My nephew/niece died for a reason. My cousin's babies, two of them he made his girlfriend kill, is still childless today, drinking himself to death as far as I know. Those babies died for a reason. And then I think of that little boy who is now 22 years old, who I Google every once in a while but still cannot find anything about him, whose life was saved because of what I Providentially said to his mom that night in her apartment on learning of the pregnancy when I thought he was mine (and still do). I was born on this very day for "times such as this."
So, it is nothing less than the Providence of God, but it is going to take supernatural courage to trust God to lead us to taking on this Satanic beast that has America captive, with a President who thinks abortion is right. I so often find myself doing what is practical instead of doing what is right. It is practical to continue crying crocodile tears for those babies once a year, as my birthday reminds me of how many have had deathdays based on the wickedness that was carried out in high places in our country on that day. But I have no doubts that God is bigger than our government, and is bigger, so much bigger, than Barack Obama's messiah complex that is being fed daily.
May He, by His grace, provide for our family's needs as we fight this Beast. May our God and Savior end this wicked law with the power that only He has, which is exactly what it is going to take. I know how you are so ready, so I am well aware that I cannot play with your emotions. I think we have a call from God that needs to be answered. May we trust Him to direct our steps (Prov. 3:5-6).
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Joshua's Voice
Hello and welcome to our blog :) The purpose of this blog is to be a voice for Joshua. Joshua is my son. Joshua never got the chance to speak. He never got the chance to live. He died when I was 17 weeks pregnant with him. This is a picture of my precious baby boy.
That was taken a few months before he died. Its been 11 years since hes been gone. I never got to hold my baby boy. I never got to feed him. Or, most importantly, I never got to tell him that I love him.
Theres a lot of guilt associated with Joshua's death. You see, his death was my fault. I gave a doctor permission to kill my precious baby boy. When I was pregnant with Joshua, I had an abortion.
God has taken this little life and used it greatly. God has shown me His awesome mercy, grace and forgiveness. He has shown me that this sin, while it is great, is not unpardonable. Abortion IS a sin, but it is a sin that Jesus died on the cross for. He has used me to tell others this message. I want to tell others, I want to show others. I want to show them God. All for His glory, to bring them to Him and they can experience true forgiveness.
I want to use the knowledge that I have from God and from my experience of Joshua's very short life to show people that abortion is taking the life of a child. That it is wrong. Id love to see the day when abortion is no longer legal and accepted and paid for by my tax dollars!! But I also want to show women who've already been there, already done that, that Jesus still loves them. That thier babies are in heaven, and that if they are going to heaven, they will get to see them one day!! That Jesus wants to forgive them and take the pain away! I want to tell pregnant women about my experiences and maybe save their children from the same fate as my precious Joshua.
This is my prayer. This is my goal. Our God truely is an awesome God. He has taken me so far and I dont want to stop. I want to keep going. For Joshua. For my wonderful Savior!!!
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