That was taken a few months before he died. Its been 11 years since hes been gone. I never got to hold my baby boy. I never got to feed him. Or, most importantly, I never got to tell him that I love him.
Theres a lot of guilt associated with Joshua's death. You see, his death was my fault. I gave a doctor permission to kill my precious baby boy. When I was pregnant with Joshua, I had an abortion.
God has taken this little life and used it greatly. God has shown me His awesome mercy, grace and forgiveness. He has shown me that this sin, while it is great, is not unpardonable. Abortion IS a sin, but it is a sin that Jesus died on the cross for. He has used me to tell others this message. I want to tell others, I want to show others. I want to show them God. All for His glory, to bring them to Him and they can experience true forgiveness.
I want to use the knowledge that I have from God and from my experience of Joshua's very short life to show people that abortion is taking the life of a child. That it is wrong. Id love to see the day when abortion is no longer legal and accepted and paid for by my tax dollars!! But I also want to show women who've already been there, already done that, that Jesus still loves them. That thier babies are in heaven, and that if they are going to heaven, they will get to see them one day!! That Jesus wants to forgive them and take the pain away! I want to tell pregnant women about my experiences and maybe save their children from the same fate as my precious Joshua.
This is my prayer. This is my goal. Our God truely is an awesome God. He has taken me so far and I dont want to stop. I want to keep going. For Joshua. For my wonderful Savior!!!
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